Posted by daisym on June 17, 2005, at 12:54:30
In reply to Daisy?, posted by Shortelise on June 17, 2005, at 12:16:28
Better than last night but I know I'm fragile. My husband asked me to please leave my therapist a message and then stood over me to make sure I did it before he would leave this morning. He also asked me not to go to work, though I keep telling him that not working makes it worse.
But, my therapist agreed. He called an hour ago and thinks I need a "mental health day." (you think?!) We talked for a long time about what happened yesterday and where it sent me. He said he thought my frustration was perfectly justified even though he knows it scares me. He said I could yell at him anytime I wanted "that sh*t doesn't bother me" and that it was likely to happen again.
He was very, very upset that I didn't call him last night, but he was glad I kept my promise and didn't hurt myself. He thinks my husband needs training on how to support me when I'm in the black hole (no, sex is not the answer dear) but he was glad I was honest with hubby about how bad I was feeling.
I'm dizzy and tired and sad this morning. But not frantic. I guess that is an improvement. I had a strange dream, I'll post about it below.
During our phone conversation, I said to my therapist, "I'm so sorry I'm so much trouble. And I'm sorry I'm back here again." He said I wasn't too much trouble (he called me silly and that made me smile because he does let me call myself silly)and that he expected this kind of fall out. That he would be more worried if I wasn't back here again. I'm not sure what that means...if he expects me to be regressed because of my dad's visit or if he expects me to be suicidal from being regressed. Either way, I still think it would be better to be neither.
Thank you all for your support. I wish it wasn't the weekend. Monday feels so far away and the board goes so quiet. I'll just keep rereading what everyone wrote. ((((Babble))))--group hug!
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