Posted by alexandra_k on May 25, 2005, at 3:50:32
In reply to Brain too fried to think, Alexandra, posted by Dinah on May 25, 2005, at 0:25:24
... I thought I was still in Chapter one.
The bit about the golden fantasy struck me too.
I didn't think I was much of an idealiser...
Rational me knows better than that...
But rational me aside
Yeah.
That really struck a chord with me...
That lady who talked about fantasising that her family would be killed... Well... That used to be a fairly standard and recurrent fantasy of mine when I was a kid. About my mother anyway. Sometimes my Dad would get me. Sometimes a teacher. I don't think it mattered really... Just someone... Anyone...But when we are really small
Before we gain a theory of mind
(the ability to see that other people have beliefs and desires)
When everything revolves around us
And (theorietically) our needs are just met as they arise (sort of...)
Well...
Who wouldn't long for that?
But you realise it is impossible once you realise that other people have needs too.
But part of you doesn't see that...
And just wants to be loved in the sense of someone being there to meet ones needs on demand in a way that is impossible in the real world. And you know that... But...
And that is me, of course.
But yeah, I get that.Then the other lady...
Or maybe it was even the same one.
About how her drama teacher seduced her...
And how her therapy went.
OMG
Thats me.
I went along with the story to a point...
Then thought OMG is that whats going on with me (horror)
Then it was resolved ok (phew)
But then what???
What of life after therapy???Too many buttons to mention...
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