Posted by pinkeye on May 20, 2005, at 14:53:09
In reply to Re: Wondering if my Ex T understood me » rockymtnhi, posted by pinkeye on May 18, 2005, at 15:18:31
I know it is pointless rumination..
But anyway, I still have this deep desire to make my Ex T understand me fully. I want to go and explain everything, my child hood, what happened with my father, why I had behaved the way I had, why I had so much of intense longing for him (and why I still do).. how emotionally messed up I had been even though I appeared all together.
I so wish he would understand me.. and tell me I am ok human.. not too bad. That he cares about me and wants me to be well and happy. I even want him to say how he terminated me was wrong. That he shouldn't have left me abruptly like that with one email.
Well, here pinkeye goes .. round and round in circles. And with no hope of breaking the loop :-(I should change my name to something like "The Ruminator" or something like The Terminator.
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