Posted by cricket on May 12, 2005, at 11:47:38
In reply to Re: Zero Feelings (Possible Trigger) » cricket, posted by sunny10 on May 12, 2005, at 9:46:35
Thanks Sunny.
Funny thing is that in my session my T seemed really nervous or something.
He kept on tripping over his own words, stopping himself mid-sentence, then closing his eyes and starting on a new thought. I assumed something else was going on with him and it had nothing to do with me. But maybe he knows me better than I think and maybe he knew that talking like that was more than I could handle and he knew that all my flight triggers were about to be activated and he was grasping for a way to cut the wires, so to speak.
Even though I felt fine in the session. There were no tears, no shaking. At most I felt that this is boring - talking about my mother. Now I feel like, "Oh no, I've said too much. That wasn't really me talking. That was somebody else. Why did I let them talk? Now I hate myself. I don't ever want to go back there."
Could he possibly know I might react that way? I rarely give this poor guy the benefit of the doubt. Maybe this week I will try to do at least that much different.
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