Posted by littleone on April 6, 2005, at 21:56:34
In reply to Focus of therapy sessions (slight trigger), posted by daisym on April 6, 2005, at 0:37:37
Daisy, it has always amazed me how hard you are working at therapy. It seems like your sessions are incredibly intense and you seem to work on the same issue or similar issues for very extended lengths of time.
I'm certainly not saying that is wrong, more that it is so different to my therapy. I jump around all over the place and if we work on an issue for 3 sessions in a row, it feels very intense and also that the subject has been talked to death.
To be honest, I have been flabbergastered by what you've been doing. I literally don't know how you've done it.
Having said that, it seems like working hard at things has never been an issue for you. I would hazard a guess that taking a gentle meanderring path would be a lot more difficult for you. If that's the case, don't you think that to learn to take a more meanderring path at times during therapy could be beneficial to you?
And don't forget, talking about suicide and sex and sorting out issues around them is also very difficult and complex. Even they would hardly be classed as gentle. So even if you're not working flat out in therapy, you are still working very hard. These are issues you need to address at some stage anyway. Therapy doesn't have a time line to be adhered to. I think it is to be expected that things stop and start and get slotted in here and over there.
I also wanted to say that it would be fair to guess that anger is going to be a very difficult issue for you. It will take a lot out of you. If suicidal thoughts/urges are an issue for you now, it would probably be a lot safer to get them under control before tackling the anger issues. It doesn't sound like you have a lot of room to move if those urges get worse.
I certainly don't think it is a bad thing that your brain is doing. Taking a rest from the heavy stuff. Even if it was "resistence", I still don't really think that is bad unless it is considerably prolonged. I know with myself, that once my brain has had a break, it will naturally move back into working on the harder stuff.
Finally, thanks for sharing the discussion about your sex dream. It's very thought provoking and it was wonderful to hear how well your T *got it*.
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