Posted by Shortelise on March 11, 2005, at 20:18:50
In reply to Re: therapy ending - my heart breaks » Shortelise, posted by Tamar on March 11, 2005, at 19:15:08
Today I went out of the city with a friend to buy roses bushes for my garden. Should anyone else require an afternoon of escapism, I would suggest a drive in the country. We went to a place where they actually grow a lot of the roses they sell, and the man who owns it helped us select the roses we bought. It was wonderful. There were chickens clucking, roosters crowing, the smell of dung in the air, and warm, fragrant plants all around. Tomorrow my husband and I will dig holes to plant these glorious treasures, so that will soothe my soul as well.
My husband talked with my T, who said that we will negociate how often I will see him, what an acceptable (acceptable for me as well as one he thinks appropriate)schedule for termination would be.
He said lots of other comforting stuff, and told my husband just to listen to me and love me - that is how he can help the most.
I am exhausted. It's astonishing how exhausting emotional stuff is. So tired. I only cried for a while this morning, but this sadness is so heavy, it's like carrying a huge weight all the time.
Thanks for your kindness. I wish I had the energy to answer each of you, but trust me, I am listening to you all, am grateful to each.
Susan, I'm glad you enjoy my "cursing" so much.
ShortE
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