Posted by Speaker on February 26, 2005, at 13:34:04
This weeks session was very different. I wasn't going to go and then decided I needed to work on deciding what I was going to do. My T told me he thinks I am stuck and that I have taken a step back (Duhhh...not calling back makes me question trust) and I agreed. I said maybe I have done all I can do with him...he said he doesn't think so. He has no clue even though I tried to explain that I don't trust that we are a team as he puts it when I can't depend on him. The csa is tortursum enough without having to wonder if he is really there for me or just analyzing me. I know myself enough to know, that him just observing me though this isn't enough...I have to feel like he cares about me not just the process of therapy. He asked me if I feel like I have an person there for me in this stuff and I said no...before I always refered to him as the teamate he said we would be but I don't feel that way anymore so I was honest. He didn't suggest that he was there for me or even that he is on my side. I know it's either there or it's not but I wonder if I am stuck and maybe I'm making a bigger deal about this than needs to be.
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