Posted by Dinah on February 21, 2005, at 18:26:40
In reply to How Did Things Go Dinah? (nm), posted by mair on February 21, 2005, at 14:51:10
My therapist didn't buy my passing it all off to the diet. He thought that might be contributing. He also thought I couldn't cure my work problems with the diet, and very circular session ensued.
"Why aren't you getting the work done." "I must be bad because I'm not doing it." "You're not bad there's a reason you're not doing the work." "But you said it didn't matter what the reason was, that I had to accept that I needed to do the work and do it, so why should I try to figure out why." "Well you aren't doing it, so we need to figure out why." "No, I just need to do it whatever the reasons are, and I'm not so I'm being bad."
Oh, and some complaints about how I'm not as smart as I used to be and never will be again. I gave him full permission to blast me for self pity, but he didn't want to.
I finally apologized to him and told him that while he must be getting frustrated, I was too. Then he made me laugh by saying he wasn't frustrated, that he only got frustrated when I wasn't frustrated. I'm not sure that's true, but I got his point.
The dietician contacted me to ask for a sample of what I'm eating in a day so we can figure the problem out. It's pretty much what she told me to eat, so...
And my doctor's nurse said the doctor would want me to talk to the dietician. So that went nowhere.
Another day of spun wheels and little work.
I hate myself.
I used to be smart and productive.
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