Posted by jasmineneroli on February 20, 2005, at 18:33:10
Hi Everyone:
I don't usually come here, I'm usually on the med board or alternative and have not visited those very often recently. I was hoping someone here could help.
I have GAD with some OCD. Right now my anxiety has suddenly peaked. My Pdoc has advised against theraapy for me, doesn't think it will help, just give me more to worry about. I take tryptophan and Klonopin daily, usually to good effect.
Last week, someone I just met socially (a therapist) gave me a meditation CD to try. Saying it was excellent for anxiety and if I listened to it for 30 mins a day (with headphones) for 2 weeks I would start to feel better. Then after that to listen to it daily without headphones for a further 5 1/2 months. She predicted that I would come to a crisis point at 6 months and feel "bad" for a while, then I would be able to "heal".
Well, day One listening, made me so agitated I had to stop after about 10 mins. (Kept thinking of things I should be doing, was forgetting and felt the urge to do these things instead).Day Two, tried again, and listened for the whole time (under a blanket). After about 6 mins, I began to feel all the worst physical aspects of my anxiety rise, then I started a headache. After about 12 mins or so, I began to mentally feel very angry, frustrated and resentful. These feelings died down as the 30 mins ran out.
However my anxiety is now higher.(There are other stress things happening as of the past 2 days).
I tried again today for 30 mins, even though I was having an high anxiety day with a lot of akathisia. This was part 2 of the CD, a different soundtrack. I felt like something was trying to penetrate my brain and read my mind or program me...it was so weird, but I didn't get the headache or anger this time. Just a lot of stomach butterflies and trembling.
Can anyone tell me what's going on here? Should I continue or not? I really don't feel like discussing it with the person who loaned me the CD, cuz I barely know her.
Thank you.
Jas
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