Posted by partlycloudy on February 7, 2005, at 17:10:11
In reply to I think I need to find a new T, posted by partlycloudy on February 2, 2005, at 20:04:21
Today I had a meltdown at work. Had major anxiety on my way in, very rough weekend visit with my mum whose brother has died (in Wales) and she was concerned about how I am doing so she came to see me first.
I was appalled at my mum's physical condition. Overweight, out of shape, unable to walk without excrutiating pain in her feet (yet she can only tell me her feet are "worn out"). I was greiving with her, concerned about her, and very aware that I was falling apart at the seams since my meds need yet another adjustment.So there I am at work, crying, unable to do a very basic function of my job. I went in to see my boss's boss - she is the nice one - and explained that my meds are off kilter and I'm worried about mum, etc., etc.
*I did not feel I could call my T and talk or schedule an appointment. We had an appointment set up for today - according to my calendar, and last Monday she had called me thinking *that* was our appointment. At that time she said she had personal committments and couldn't see me on today's date.
So I took another xanax, zoned out at work, panicked when the xanax wore off, then gritted my teeth until the end of the workday, whereupon I cried all the way home, wee, wee, wee, just like the little piggie.
I see my p-doc tomorrow. I am miserable. How much do you share with your p-doc, and will I be ratting out my T if I tell her the circumstances behind my not calling her for help today?
Puzzled, heart weary and ever so sad.
pc
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