Posted by shrinking violet on January 26, 2005, at 17:03:26
In reply to Re: One thing you can do ..., posted by annierose on January 21, 2005, at 20:40:46
Thanks Annierose. Sorry for taking so long to post a thanks. :-)
I did email her earlier this week asking to reschedule for this week. She emailed back, a curt note, asking me to call the front desk to see what she has available. Which hurt me, b/c I already feel like she's changing things and becoming more clinical and removed. So I decided not to call, at least not this week. But today I had sort of a meltdown again and I have SO much going on emotionally right now and I need to tell someone or I'll go crazy. I just dont know if I can trust her, given that she works for the University (past experience tells me I can't, even though it isn't her fault). So today, during a crying jag, I decided to ask for an appt this week. But of course the office was closed but I left a message asking for an appt this Friday if there are any, so we'll see. So now I'm working on writing everything down and I'll bring it with me and decide there whether I can trust her with it.
Thanks for your response. I just wish I knew what was wrong with me and how to fix it. :-(
SV
> SV-
> I have one idea for your pain. Call your T and reschedule your appointment. I remember that feeling from years ago, trying to run away from the pain. But it's in there, whether you want it to be or not. A part of you wanted their concern, and they were. They care and want to help you. Please try to go so they can see you through this rough patch. It may be a scary feeling for you, someone who is really there for you, caring, wanting to help. Try to let them in.
> I know it's hard.
> Annierose
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