Posted by lonelygal2 on January 19, 2005, at 19:54:52
In reply to Re: she canceled. » lonelygal, posted by CareBear04 on January 19, 2005, at 17:44:15
thanks carebear.. umm, yeah i still have no clue what i'm doing. i tried to leave a message and got flustered and hung up. i read your thread below about borderline, and i feel like she must be thinking i'm borderline by the way that i'm acting. i'm sure she thinks i'm being manipulative. i really don't want to be a bother and i hate asking for help b/c i think that is already bad enough, and i just feel so awful, like i'm such a bad, messed up person that needs to go crawl in a corner and leave everyone alone. i don't understand how my life has turned into such awfulness. and how i feel so stupid. and also like such a phony that i pretend so well to be okay so much of the time. that i'm just wishing i can pretend to myself that i'm fine, but its so hard.
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