Posted by meg7 on January 12, 2005, at 14:30:32
In reply to Re: I hate therapy. (Longish) » Dinah, posted by daisym on January 11, 2005, at 23:58:42
> Weird as this sounds, I worry that by cutting down the pain, I'll be cutting down the opportunities to talk about this stuff...and get it all out. Like I won't be able to access stuff because I'm numbed out. on the other hand, being numb would have some benefits too.
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This sounds very familiar. I also resent taking meds because of the fear they will reduce the ability to access stuff and talk about it. Talking is difficult for me in any situation, but when I am in severe pain it is sometimes easier because the feelings of despair, urgency and loss of control exceed those of sensitivity and shame. On the other hand, without meds the pain is unbearable and I can't get through the days, much less the nights.
Perhaps you can find the proper dosage of the right med in order to find the balance which is right for you- maybe even slightly reducing the pain so that you won't feel numbed out.
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