Posted by Aphrodite on January 11, 2005, at 18:11:11
In reply to I hate therapy. (Longish), posted by Daisym on January 11, 2005, at 10:12:06
Even though secure attachment is one of the main goals in work like yours and mine, it's precarious because all the eggs are in one basket. I too was very hesitant about the pdoc (still haven't found a good one), but in the end, I reframed it as part of a larger plan of having more support. I think the work is so hard that I need more team members. So, when things go wrong, I can rely on more than one professional who can help. I always thought, "What in the world would I do if a piano fell on my T's head in the middle of all of this?!?" So, I've let my PCP in, still working on a pdoc, and I'm doing other things like yoga classes and meditation classes to work through the issues. I'm trying everything. Most of the time, I feel intensely dependent on my T. In some ways, I didn't want to branch out because even with all the bad things that come with my resistance of dependency, it also at times gave me great comfort and solace and connection. I thought I would lose that. Now that I am doing more things, I feel like I can manage longer between sessions, and I think about the things my meditation teacher says instead of just my T, I practice my yoga which is supposed to be releasing for PTSD (seems to be for me), and I still have some meds left over that greatly reduce my anxiety that makes the trauma work easier. So, please don't feel like it's one or the other. It may, in the end, make therapy much more tolerable. At least it has for me, but things could always change. . . Is your T going to communicate with the pdoc? Could he write a summary and send it to the pdoc in advance? Mine did this, and it was very relieving although I had bad experiences unrelated to it. I hope yours is a good match on the first visit.
I know it's all very confusing and scary. I hope you have a soft landing from it all.
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