Posted by Dinah on January 9, 2005, at 19:41:58
In reply to See, here's the thing (trigger, I guess), posted by Dinah on January 9, 2005, at 12:37:35
To you Alexandra, and to everyone else. I really do try not to post in that state of mind, but sometimes it happens.
I actually see this as a step forward, not back. I'm angry rather than helpless and it's jarred me from paralysis. The not eating is a bit silly, but it beats constant suicidal urges. And my SI barely merits the term.
I'm not well, that's clear. But I think it might look worse, because y'all aren't used to seeing that side of me directly. And I have committed to no harm till my next appt.
I think this just all brings up a LOT of old feelings and old anger and pain. Clearly an area for some exploration when I'm feeling a bit better. I somehow think exploration wouldn't go all that well right now.
I'll take some time to process everything. And I'll print my post to take to my therapist. I don't always express my thoughts very well when I'm like that.
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