Posted by Skittles on December 29, 2004, at 19:06:29
In reply to Re: I've become the *bad* patient » Skittles, posted by daisym on December 28, 2004, at 18:55:39
And as far as the mother thing, it wasn't a problem. She wasn't there when I arrived and she still wasn't there when I left. Such relief!!
I'm extremely happy I went and was able to talk through how the whole family conversation made me feel. But it was all very emotional and I worked hard not to cry uncontrollably. I must have seemed in pretty bad shape (probably b/c I am) because she asked me for the first time if I ever thought about hurting myself. I was honest but I wouldn't tell her my plan. I'm leaving in a couple of days for a trip that normally would have me tickled pink, but as things are now I'm dreading it. I don't want to go. She told me to call her at least once while I'm away. I guess I'm glad she kind of made it homework of sorts because I know that otherwise I'll think about calling her but never go through with it. This way I don't have to decide whether I need her or only want her. I'm just supposed to do it.
And I hate these really emotional sessions because I feel so needy afterwards. I can't seem to pull myself back together and all I've been able to think about for the past 9 hours is talking to her again. Yuck!
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