Posted by Toph on December 23, 2004, at 9:34:09
In reply to Re: Bringing PB into therapy » Toph, posted by Dinah on December 23, 2004, at 7:51:53
I was thinking about Bob this morning. I have been considering leaving Babble because, despite all the good things, it might cost me my job if I don't reduce my involvement. Anyway, I was going to write a closing statement/goodbye letter and thoughts of civility came to mind. I am embarassed by many of my juvenile protests and insults I have directed his way. He has his hands tied, and it's like punching and spitting upon a defenseless person, well, you get the picture. It's pretty cowardly on my part.
Dinah, I think I have expressed this in some way to you before, you, are pretty enigmatic to me as well. You are so levelheaded, so serious, so firm in your commitment to the principles of this site that you are in many ways the conscience of PB for many of us. When I'm being bad, in the back of my mind I worry about what Dinah will think. That doesn't mean that my transference of you is that of a mother, more of a school teacher. You will tolerate childish behavior so much and then you demand decorum. I know this isn't reality, I've seen you play and suffer in ways a teacher couldn't openly. Anyway, in case I do exit, I thought I'd share my experience. I haven't been here long but you were one of the people that stood out as real and having a formidable presence here.
I read some of the early archives and Bob was more involved in dialogue with participants. He still was enigmatic then as well. But as frustrating as it is for us that he has to guard against exposing his human side, I'm sure it is equally frustrating for him to be the neutral observer and administrator. I bet that he must have wanted to kick my @ss a few times.
Have a nice holiday, Dinah.
-Toph
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