Posted by crushedout on December 20, 2004, at 21:45:05
In reply to Re: I hate being depressed » crushedout, posted by fallsfall on December 20, 2004, at 8:33:13
I think you guys think I'm depressed because I miss my T, and that's part of it I suppose. But I'm depressed because life S^CKS!!!! It's so lame, and boring, and pointless, and devoid of true happiness. Or lasting happiness. And it's just the same B.S. day in and day out. And I in particular have a cr*ppy life, a cr*ppy apartment, and no one to love. Many of you, who also know depression very well, at least have nice homes and families (and probably even carpets!) -- I delude myself into thinking if I had these things, I would be happy. But then how come all of you aren't perfectly happy? Because that's an illusion also. Which means there really IS no hope.So, yes, I miss my T, because she was a little spark of joy (or at least emotion) in this dreary existence of mine, but getting over her is not going to solve my problem. My problem runs much deeper. So I'm basically scr*wed and it will never get better. Or, even if it does, it will get worse again. So, what's the point?
Sorry to be such a downer.
poster:crushedout
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