Posted by Toph on December 18, 2004, at 22:07:35
In reply to Re: Oh thanks, but... » Toph, posted by Shortelise on December 18, 2004, at 16:39:07
ShortE,
If I'm really honest about it, every time I post I guess I'm hoping that someone will find my ideas to be funny, intelligent, clever, kind or whatever. At work I speak in such an impassioned tone that I sure they think I'm nuts (actually, I've only told my best friend there about my illness and I pray that she hasn't shared this confidence with anyone else). But I'm really sensitive to whether people like me. I remember this one coworker who wanted me to remove this severely brian injured woman from her husband's home. She had had an ameuryism and could only utter a few words. Her husband was kind of an @ss, he brought women home with him surely hurting his wife. But when you asked her if she wanted to be cared for in a nursing home, if you looked into her eyes she would tell you in a way that was clear that she wanted to stay with her family and watch her children grow even if it meant watching her husband's betrayal. The other worker did everything to sabotage the funding for this family and I called her on it to the entire department. We didn't speak for years. But I knew she was a good person and it began to bother me that we weren't talking even after the client had died. What does this have to do with compliments? I'm not sure but it took a while to write so I'm leaving it. I guess I was saying that I hate it when anyone dislikes me and yet, for whatever reason, I have no confidence in accepting any praise. Maybe that's related in some way to why I have many friends but no really close ones, but that's another topic for another day.
-Toph
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