Posted by daisym on December 14, 2004, at 0:34:44
In reply to Nope., posted by fallsfall on December 13, 2004, at 12:43:56
"Never give up! Never surrender!"
I'm sorry it is sooo hard and frustrating. I think you are on to something, it just eludes you at this point. And you asked your therapist to push you, so he is, but maybe not gently enough?
I've been stuck in my own spiral enough lately to know how incredibly hard it is to break free and see what we are doing to ourselves. It is like the next step up is 10 feet and we can only jump 9...enough to peak over the ledge but not enough to quite get there. Even when we know we are jumping up and down, we can't seem to stop ourselves.
You told me recently that I was in a boat, running back and forth from end to end, frantically trying to get to shore. But that what I needed to do was sit down, stay still and realize that I'm in a boat and it will capsize if I'm not careful. After I accept that I'm in the boat, THEN I can figure out how to get to shore.
This helped me settle down, out of the frantic pace. Can you try it too? I'm still in the da*n boat, but I feel like I can at least see the oar that might help me get to shore.
Mostly, I guess I want you to know I'm here to listen. Nothing you could say here would be wrong.
(((Falls)))
poster:daisym
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