Posted by Daisym on December 10, 2004, at 20:02:57
In reply to Re: Child abuse=abuser? PLEASE RESPOND » Notaliseliz, posted by Fallen4MyT on December 10, 2004, at 19:42:16
It seems really important that you try to figure out why you did what you did and at some point forgive yourself. If you don't have access to a therapist, how about a clergy person? Your awareness and regret makes me think you will keep yourself from doing it again. But your anger and rage is cause for concern. I know you say it is turned on to yourself, but as your children grow beyond your protection and hit the age where you did what you did, you might see it turn outward.
There are no easy answers here. I wish you were in a place to get more help for yourself. The only other thing I can think of is e-therapy. Some people have good experiences with this. It might be worth a try.
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