Posted by daisym on December 10, 2004, at 0:23:22
In reply to Re: Having hard time with feeling vulnerable, posted by antigua on December 9, 2004, at 23:07:11
Poet,
I think you told me recently that you were about 52% attached to your therapist. That is more than 1/2 -way. So slowly but surely, you are getting there.
I'm struggling with this same thing, not knowing how to allow myself to be emotionally supported and trust that I won't get dropped. But it kills me to admit to this struggle. I desperately want to relax this internal guard and give in completely to being cared for. Yesterday my therapist asked "don't you trust me anymore?" He told me how sad he felt that I had pulled away. I was in tears but I can't force it. Neither can you.
Try to let yourself accept the help, even if you have to start your own "pay back when I can" emotional mortgage. That might make it easier for you.
And I'm sorry about the bad job interview. They can just make you feel so horrible. At least you called her to tell her how miserable you are. That to me says you are accepting some of the support she offers, even if ambivolently.
(((Poet))) Take it easy on yourself.
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