Posted by littleone on November 11, 2004, at 15:14:08
I'm working through an Inner Child workbook at the moment and something really jumped out at me yesterday. It says:
"Allow yourself to ponder the thought that if your body were a child, what kind of care would that child be receiving from you. The way you treat your body is probably most linked to the way you were treated as an infant because your body is similarly dependent upon you to meet its needs."
I started thinking about this and just became horribly depressed. I'm a horrible mother. It's lucky I don't have actual kids.
I cut. I pick. I punish. I stuff food into myself whether I need it or not. About half my diet is chocolate. I isolate my body from other people (I don't allow hugs/touches/whatever). I don't treat my body very nicely sexually. I take all my bad emotions and store them as tension in my muscles.
I'm surprised it has stuck around with me for as long as it has.
And it's probably not even my body that I'm trying to abuse. I would be trying to abuse *me*. But my body is a convenient physical target.
Isn't it sad that I always try to treat others so nicely, but then I abuse myself so badly - physically and mentally.
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