Posted by Miss Honeychurch on November 11, 2004, at 8:55:06
In reply to Re: Maintenance Therapy » Miss Honeychurch, posted by shortelise on November 11, 2004, at 1:54:25
ShortE,
It's an interesting question you ask, why I won't allow myself to think he cares for me. I suppose I chalk it up to experience. There have been many experiences in my life where I care deeply for someone and for some reason assume they must care for me. When I disclose my feelings, expecting these same feelings in return, I am met with apathy and as it turns out, my feelings are always a lot more intense than the other person's.
So I end up humiliated and chastise myself to no end for being so stupid. I suppose I am scared of the same thing happening with my T. I feel it would be 100 times worse to learn that he doesn't care for me. I would be devestated. SO it is easier for me to go on thinking that it is part of his job to pretend to care for me.
But ShortE, you are making me rethink this stance. You are so eloquent. Thank you :) I short change myself all the time. You have really made me rethink this issue.
The world is just so full of people saying things they don't mean, just to get along in the world. I need to realize that not everyone is like this.
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