Posted by Aphrodite on September 8, 2004, at 12:30:21
In reply to I should be at my appointment right now . . ., posted by Aphrodite on September 7, 2004, at 16:59:45
Thanks, everyone, for your care and concern and your wonderfully unconditional support. It is so needed as I am hurting so much right now. The little girl in me is so devastated that he didn't call knowing all that he knows of my pain. Corporate Aphrodite is very glad not to talk to him right now.
I think the shame and guilt involve not only my recent meltdowns in his office (which I JUST DON'T DO!) but also the extreme guilt and shame that goes along with the kind of abuse I am disclosing. It is an overwhelming part of my childhood to relive almost 20 years later. I worry what his opinion is, how he must judge me, etc. You know, all of the irrational thoughts that everyone must see me as negatively as I see myself.
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