Posted by crushedout on August 26, 2004, at 21:33:08
In reply to Re: Aargh I'm in pain again, posted by DaisyM on August 26, 2004, at 21:22:17
> Is it possible that things with the boyfriend are getting more serious and that might be scaring you into running for cover...back to a relationship that CAN'T work but gets you twisted up? Just a huge guess...
I dunno, Daisy. It's really not a bad guess. That would be kind of nice if that were the reason. I'll have to give that some thought. I hope you're right.
The whole boyfriend thing is pretty weird for me since I've been a lesbian for so long. And I've basically told him I don't think I could ever fall in love with him and the amazing thing is he sort of might be okay with that. Obviously neither of us really can know all the possibilities (i.e., I could be wrong).
> I'm glad she handled what you had to say in a professional way. My therapist always tells me that therapy is a spiral. You have to keep going over and over stuff and eventually you get to the core. There is something here that remains unresolved for you. Letting go is still too hard. You'll figure it out. You've been really working at it. Just let her help you keep your feel on the ground.Yeah, I bet your therapist is right. I just hope she can help me with this. So far, she hasn't proven herself very competent in this area.
> Do you have a vacation break coming up from her? Maybe this would be a good testing time, to see how you feel about being away from her?Yeah, she's gone next week. Not much of a vacation, but you're right -- it might be helpful for me. And I'm not sure it's a coincidence that I'm feeling this way now, right after our last session before she goes away.
> Whatever happens, I'm glad you can still post about it. I miss you when you disappear.Thanks, Daisy. It means a lot to me.
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