Posted by vwoolf on July 27, 2004, at 14:36:04
In reply to Re: Confused » vwoolf, posted by Racer on July 27, 2004, at 12:55:26
Thanks Racer for all the warmth and understanding you put into your post – I really feel such need of warmth and understanding at the moment, but can’t get them from anyone apart from my therapist, where they come with such terribly mixed feelings, and PsychoBabble, where there are no hang-up’s about having to pay, or obligations of any kind……it’s actually quite an amazing place!
I know exactly what you mean about the difficult students. I am also an ex-teacher (and, believe it or not, ex-school counselor), and always loved the troubled kids most. But I doubt that my therapist feels fired up with enthusiasm all week over me. Apart from anything else, I see her two or three times a week, and I think I must be getting very tedious after a year. Maybe one day she will look back on me as one of her more memorable, character-forming cases, but not right now.
On the other hand I live for my sessions with her. In between, I drag myself from one business meeting to another, and back to bed as soon as I can. I’m sure you’ve been through something similar, from the way you write, so I know you understand. It’s true, deciding to get married was not anywhere nearly as difficult as this. I like the idea of Psychological Soldiers – or rather, I don’t like the idea, but I have battlements swarming with Soldiers anyway. So-called friendly fire sometimes ;-/
I am trying to force myself to be as open as possible with my therapist, so I show her quite a lot of my writing. I am seeing her tomorrow morning, and have already printed out this correspondence to give her. I’m not sure how she’ll take it, but I don’t believe she’ll throw me out at this point at any rate. I’ll let you know how it goes.
Warm regards.
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