Posted by B2chica on July 2, 2004, at 22:12:42
In reply to Re: didn't chicken out » B2chica, posted by DaisyM on July 2, 2004, at 21:29:01
>>...When they say it back to you, it can feel like a slap the first few times. Just someone else saying it out loud and knowing....
Exactly!
it was like a slap when he said that word...and i just keep comparing it to what you see in movies...there was no gun, not a stranger jumping me in the ally and i didn't end up in the hospital. that i have no right to call it this. i just have been struggling with this for so long... i really feel like i have some adjusting to do from today, like it doesn't quite seem real, almost...kinda numb or overwhelmed, i don't know??But where there's one there's 20 others (isn't that what they say about roaches?)....Just get done with one real big breakthrough and feel like i have a hundred more coming at me even faster now.
Next, i need to take a look at some of the other disturbing memories (with other people) throughout my life and find a way to get these out as well. Some i'm so utterly disgusted with the visuals, at this time i don't think i'll ever get it out...but i guess for 15 years i didn't think i'd ever get what i said today out either. I guess, just time right?> You are rightfully exhausted. Give yourself a break and rest some. I know you have this huge party. Be careful with alcohol, you are pretty fragile, whether you feel it or not. It isn't uncommon to shut completely down either, so if it is hard to get restarted next week, don't worry.
Thank You, this is some great words of wisdom that i needed to hear. You're wonderful DaisyM.
and i think i'm headed home to crash.(had to come to work to get online)
> Here is a really big, really hard hug from me.
> You earned it.Daisy, i REALLY needed this. THANK YOU
(((((((Daisy)))))))))ps- Hope you have a Wonderful 4th.
B2c.
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