Posted by Jai Narayan on May 29, 2004, at 20:14:51
In reply to Thanks Daisy and Aphrodite, posted by antigua on May 25, 2004, at 22:09:36
Dear antigua,
When I turned 16 after a horrible fight with my mother, I saw myself as black and white. One side was good one side bad. I became contrary. I started cutting and drinking and doing everything that was bad.
Before that I was the good girl and did everything the best I could but was hurting inside.
The fight my mother and I had drove me over the edge. She ended up in the hospital and I went under.
It has taken me years to liberate the girls....to become gray....white and black all mixed together. Good, bad and all the places in between. I am whole now and sometimes I feel bad about how I handled something but I am not the BAD PERSON I would have been. I no longer have to punish myself for anything....I am free.
I feel like someone who has just stepped out of a jail.
"Free at last...free at last....god almighty free at last"
poster:Jai Narayan
thread:350498
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20040522/msgs/351969.html