Posted by gardenergirl on May 5, 2004, at 22:46:07
In reply to Re: Should I send this email to my T? » crushedout, posted by fallsfall on May 5, 2004, at 13:45:15
crushed,
My goodness, this must be so difficult for you. You are still hanging in there and trying to learn from it, and for that I admire you.I just wanted to tell you about a reaction I had to reading one of your posts. In responding to Miss Honey, who, I think has been encouraging you to terminate with Ellen (I could be wrong on this, if so please forgive a tired brain.) Anyway, you said:
"Oh, Miss Honey. i feel so bad. you must be so frustrated with me. i'm more tempted right now than ever to take your advice. but i know i shouldn't get your hopes up. i wish i could stop torturing you."
Is this exchange, in any way, like your relationship with Ellen? I mean, it sounds like it is all about wanting to know that the person cares enough to be affected by what you do or don't do. Does that make sense? Does this seem like you? If not, please feel free to tell me to put a sock in it. It was just one of those bells going off as I was reading things.
I do hope that you are able to continue to grow, heal, and love yourself thru your therapeutic relationship. But if it's not so therapeutic, I also hope that you are able to leave when you need to.
Take care, and again, feel free to tell me I'm off base if I am.
gg
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