Posted by crushedout on May 4, 2004, at 21:29:57
OK, for those of you sweet souls that have been following my saga, I've drafted the following email to send to my T cancelling this week's session, but before I send it, I want to make sure it's not a bad idea. I just feel sick about having to see her after how badly she hurt me today. I honestly don't know if I can ever face her again. I don't know if it's just pride or what. And am I just being manipulative? I wonder. But I haven't sent this email and I'll wait till at least tomorrow morning before I send it. What do you guys think?
I just can't decide whether I want to preserve this relationship or run far, far away. It's caused me so much pain recently.
[Ellen],
I think I may need to take the rest of this week off, actually. I'm feeling way too hurt, confused, and unsafe. I'm sorry you felt that I was giving you responsibility for my feelings -- I wasn't intending to, and I didn't understand why you were so angry with me. I deeply regret having brought up the cutting, since I'm never able to talk about it in a productive way and it never gets us anywhere good. I felt like we were making really important progress last week and I was feeling really hopeful. Now I feel like we're in a hopeless mire.
I hope you understand. This is just about self-preservation. Hopefully I'll get my sh*t together enough to see you next Tuesday.
[crushedout]
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