Posted by karen_kay on April 21, 2004, at 22:02:57
In reply to Re: As requested, but are you sure you want it hear? » karen_kay, posted by fallsfall on April 21, 2004, at 17:38:31
ok, i had a major (possibly stupid, don't get me wrong here) idea while walking home from the library today. so, i'm thinking that possibly, maybe even perhaps!!!! the way to solve my own problems is through helping others solve their own? what do you think? maybe if i continue to help others and give it my all (and i mean really give it a go) then maybe my problems will somehow work their own way out?
ok, so i have this constant need to help people. and it is coming from somewhere, right? so, why not do it? and, if i continue to do it, and put myself on hold, possibly my problems will work out too. like karma. see, i'll get what i give. and if i only give out good energy (and god knows, i'm trying and i think that it's been better lately, but not good enough of course) then good energy will come back.
so, does this sound like a crock, or am i on to something here? so, i'm thinking, by participating in this group (and i'm not doing it with the intention of getting good things for myself, or with the hopes of receiving good things, you know? i'm not being selfish in any way. i'm doing it so that i can help bubba. so i can help the people involved. you know?) so, by participating in this group, and giving out good energy, possibly maybe perhaps, good energy will come back to me as well? or did i blow it by hoping for it?
good god! i'm so confused at this point i don't know if i'm sitting or standing. i just want the world to be happy. and i don't want my dog to have nightmares anymore. and i don't want little kids to fall off their bicycles either. see, i overanalyze everything falls. i need a therapist to tell me it's ok..... but, i'm too busy trying to help his group succeed and worrying that he's ill whne he doesn't return my phone calls to talk to him about my problems. shesh i'm stuck! i'm just a bad bad person. no, i just have no spine. no, falls, what's my problem? i need someone to take care of me. that's my problem. so, what is it????? do you have an answer? anyone? speak up...
oh, one more thing he said, and this one goes in the list of stupid commmments too... he said, "as your psychologist, i say you are thinking too much."
oh, bubba,,,why me?
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