Posted by Racer on April 10, 2004, at 21:01:46
In reply to Re: Any response? Anyone? Please?*si trigger*, posted by Dinah on April 9, 2004, at 20:57:17
You managed to bring up two -- not one, but two -- count 'em, two -- of my own pet theories.
First of all, I do think that certain parts of our personalities are formed at certain times in our lives, and don't change much after that. For instance, if you look at the way people around you dress, you'll probably see that their style -- as opposed to fashion -- stays pretty consistent over time. It's as if they learned to dress a certain way, and that's always what looks good to them. Sure, there'll be variations, but the overall 'feel' of the clothes will stay pretty much the same. It's why I'll never be a Birkenstock sort of a gal, or like asymmetrics very much on me. When I first started to notice what I wore, those things were not what everyone else wore. And I'll bet you're right about the self-image getting pretty well set at about the same point, too. That would make a certain amount of sense in regards to me. Maybe I'll be able to address that one day...
The other thing that had a lot of resonance for me was the part about OCD. YES, I *know* that I retreat into restricted eating when I feel certain types of stress. This time, it was that feeling that there was no one I could turn to for help. The last therapist really damaged me, because she never seemed to listen to me, or hear me. In response, I stopped trying to tell her anything, and just sucked back inside myself. That's part of the feeling with food right now: if I can just stop wanting -- food, love, sex, ANYTHING -- if I can just suck my skin tightly over my bones and empty myself out inside, then maybe I'll be OK. Maybe I'll be able to empty out the pain, too. Something like that, anyway.
Thank you for your input. I think I agree pretty well with much of what you said. Now to see how I can apply any of this to my life...
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