Posted by mair on April 8, 2004, at 13:21:13
In reply to Re: An Update - I have vision... » mair, posted by 64Bowtie on April 5, 2004, at 2:34:39
I've had 2 sessions this week. In the first we talked alot about my feeling like there was no where to go with therapy. She tried to stress to me that I didn't need to arrive ready to talk about certain things, or anything for that matter. Whatever state I was in was acceptable. (hah maybe to her) At the end she asked me to consider writing her a letter spelling out the forbidden topic. I know that's worked for lots of people here although I've never tried it.
I didn't have time during the work day to do this and I couldn't steal enough computer time from my daughter to do this at night, but I did give a great deal of thought to what I would write. The upshot was that at today's session I felt ready to be a little more open. I think it helped that today's session got moved to a very early time slot (7:40 am) so there was no time for me to sit around and get anxious. I think it's also true that figuring out how I would write about it allowed me to get some real emotional distance - I could just discuss it in a much more factual way. This is good and bad - good because it got me over the hump, but maybe bad because she's complained (at least remarked) before about my tendency to censor in such a way that painful topics have been stripped of all emotional content before they get discussed.
Regardless, I'll take it.
Thanks again to one and all for alot of encouragement that did make a difference. YOur help was invaluable as was the support of zenhussy who reached across the great divide from her place of exile to lend encouragement as well.
Mair
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