Posted by Pfinstegg on March 23, 2004, at 16:11:05
In reply to Re: Ego states » Pfinstegg, posted by Dinah on March 23, 2004, at 11:47:18
Thank you, Dinah -for the old post from last May! I didn't remember writing it, and it was fun to read and ask myself the same question- how have I changed, if at all? It's a slow process, for sure, but I think the negative parts- the small child who was abandonned, terrified, and yet still full of longing for her mother, and the slightly older girl, who was enraged and helpless because of the abuse she was getting, are THERE in the hours much more of the time. I'm a lot more aware of those feelings than I was, and not surprised any longer when they appear. They always appear in relation to my analyst; I react to HIM as if he were the rejecting mother or abusive father. Transference with a capital T! He doesn't make any quick interpretations about what the transference is really about; we both know that by now. Rather, he lets it play itself out; almost always, those young parts of me get to have a new experience of someone who is reliable and really THERE; they get to feel better and more comforted. When we get to that point, I can tell HIM what the transference storm was all about, which lets us both know that I really understand what's going on. So, I guess I can say, one year later, that my awareness is much greater, and the *parts* are much more present in the analytic hour. It looks like they'll need quite a bit more interaction with him before they feel really healed and integrated. I do love this way of working- it seems to make so much sense!
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