Posted by Pfinstegg on March 23, 2004, at 0:02:43
In reply to Ego states, posted by Dinah on March 22, 2004, at 20:37:09
Ego State Disorder because of Complex PTSD is the diagnosis I have. I was quite shocked to receive that dx initially, but I do now think that it is right, It doesn't involve any lost time, or feeling like different people. What it involves is very sudden shifts (under certain stresses) from feeling happy, relaxed and confident- just going about my business and functioning well- to feeling extremely depressed, anxious and "frozen". I can hide it, and keep looking as if I'm OK, but I am really not. I don't even feel like I've dissociated, but a part of me definitely has- so, even though it's not DID or MPD, it's considered on the general spectrum of those disorders.
It's kind of a blow to the ego to have an Ego State Disorder! But my analyst is great, and so highly skilled at dealing with stuff like this, so I am letting much more of it show- to him, and to me-than I ever did before. It's really helping.
Maybe I should add, to make it a bit clearer if I can, that the part that freezes and dissociates is an extremely young part of me that I mostly keep hidden- but at a cost of a lot of stress.
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