Posted by KindGirl on March 1, 2004, at 9:08:34
In reply to Re: To those who have crossed the line » tinydancer, posted by sb417 on March 1, 2004, at 1:12:09
I wanted to add something here for you since I noticed that not many have responded.
No, I have not crossed the line with my T. Boy do I dream about her...about it...but no I haven't acted on it thank God!I do want to share with you when I DID cross the line and that was in high school with my favorite teacher. He was my music teacher for 3 years and was like a therapist for me in a way. My parents were never there for me and he was...he listened, he came to my volleyball games (and now we all know that this was his predatory pattern but at the time I didn't know that).....and then it happened.
My senior year we had a sexual relationship....during school even!!!! On field trips, on the bus....okay I will spare you the details...but....the infatuation with him was sooooooooooooooo strong and I feel those same feelings now for my t. I have not had these feelings since the teacher.
We did cross the line....and the sex was horrible. He was a selfish lover, he was not good at it, his mouth had a funny metal taste to it from dental work I guess....and the fantasy was ruined. I wished I never did it. Yes, it was like a dream come true...the cool teacher you think is hot wants you and you guys actually "do it"....but the reality was a nightmare.
And the icing on the cake was I had to testify in court against him because right after me he did it with a 15 year old and was arrested. I was the only girl who would come forward. Of course I was devastated because I "loved" him and thought I was the only one and found out there were many many others....
I wanted to share something that happened in my life because even when I do fantasize about my T. or anyone else I trust in this way, I remember the experience in high school and would NEVER do it again. It ruined everything.
Hope this helped and didn't hurt you. Thanks for listening.
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