Posted by Miss Honeychurch on February 28, 2004, at 17:56:30
In reply to doing better but .....scared, posted by Pandabear on February 28, 2004, at 12:28:07
Panda, I've been going through the same thing. I started therpay last July and was a complete wreck - I was on the verge of divorce, I hated myself, I was depressed, anxious, and a hypochondriac. I had been living like that for about a year before I decided what I really needed was a therapist and not another unnecessary medical test.
I have come a long way since then and feel really good. I've been doing so well in fact that I am now on "maintenance" as my T calls it, seeing him twice a month instead of every week. Then I'll eventually go down to once a month. And then, well, I don't want to think about it.
But I am so afraid of a relapse. My T and I discussed this at our last session and he of course says this is completely natural. I'm also beginning to see depressive and self-destructive behavior in other people and I find it so hard not to inform these people they would feel so much better if they saw a therapist! I think this is a good sign. I see people behaving/reacting/thinking the way I used to and feel grateful I am not there anymore.
But I'm still scared about this "new me." I'm sorry, I have no advice, but thought I would tell you you are not alone in this.
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