Posted by B2chica on February 28, 2004, at 16:10:49
In reply to Re: doing better but .....scared, posted by gardenergirl on February 28, 2004, at 14:28:40
> Pandabear,
> I think this is quite common. I have seen it with a number of my clients. I think I've even been through it myself a bit, but I need to get better, I think, before it hits me for real.
>
> I think the conflict is between the old, known way of life and the new, unknown. The unknown is always scarier than the known. Some also wonder if the new, good feelings will last, as they have been in pain for so long. The longer you are feeling good, the more it will begin to feel natural, I believe. But it takes courage and strength to take this risk. I believe you have that, as everyone who remains in therapy beyond the initial stage must have courage to face their "demons."
> Congrats for doing better!
> ggBoy gg, you hit the nail right on with everything you've said! It's all i've ever known. This last cycle of highs and lows were my worst ever (that's why i got the Dx) and i scared myself. But taking the meds/or not taking them scare me to. Sometimes i worry that they'll take "me" away (the meloncholic me, and the energized me) and put some dull drone in it's place. and i guess to some extent they will. And even if it does work i DO wonder if it will last.
The thing is -i don't mean to be a stereotype here but i do get very creative at the beginnings of both polar realms (once i reach the peak it sucks but..). I don't want this to go away.
Man, i am so glad i found this place. I've never met so many people that Truly understand how i'm feeling!
B2c.
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