Posted by crushedout on February 18, 2004, at 9:09:22
Both today and yesterday I've felt beat up by my therapist. I think we may be doing something important but this is not what I need right now. I need support, love, an ally. And she's challenging me, arguing with me, accusing me of blaming her (and my parents) for my problems, etc. etc. It's so rough. Why can't she see that I just need her to be gentle with me? It's not because I haven't tried telling her, because I have.Is this my stuff or hers? I don't know. It's so hard to know. All I know is I can't function and I want to be able to function. I feel like quitting therapy, but then she would say I was doing it to punish her, and I'm not sure I could completely deny that. But I'd also be doing it in an attempt to save myself. I can't handle this right now. She's not around to pick up the pieces after she beats me up.
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thread:315080
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