Posted by Racer on February 16, 2004, at 11:41:25
In reply to Re: Next writing assignment » Racer, posted by Crooked Heart on February 16, 2004, at 3:54:18
Heheheh, yes, she was silent. I think they drew her eyebrows on to give her that suffering look, since she always seemed to have that same desperately suffering appearance.
Sure, use my metaphor. What's mine is yours, darlin'. And think of it as inadequate compensation for what you've given me: thank you for taking the time to cite specific portions of what I wrote. General compliments leave me feeling even less worthy of the oxygen I use each day. Specific compliments help keep my feet moving forward. Guess it's back to validation, eh? General validation, along the lines of "Of course, you're worthy, EVERYONE is worthy," always make me feel as if I should step out of the way and let someone else be worthy in my place. That I'm not as worthy as anyone else. (Not quite ready to turn my condo over to the homeless guy down the street, but along those lines -- and I do feel guilty for living here when so many people have no shelter at all.) Specific validation, such as "you have helped little girls find their inner confidence as they learned to ride, and they will grow up the better for it." That helps me more. Feeling as if I have left something, no matter how small or how transient, as a monument to my own immortality, my own little mark on the world, does make me feel entitled to that next breath.
Thank you for your time and attention to this matter. If you have any further questions, or would like to schedule an interview at your convenience, please don't hesitate to call.
Sincerely yours,
Racer who drives the way she writes: I figure I'll get somewhere sometime, so who needs a roadmap?
(OK, silly stage of the day has officially set in. I'm gonna go see if I can find a smaller pair of pants in the box under the bed, on accounta I'm sick of having my pants falling off my hips. Then, I'm gonna -- clean house and roll coins.)
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