Posted by Pandabear on January 31, 2004, at 22:06:02
Recently, My therapist suggested that I get rid of the relationships in my life that are causing me more harm than good...the "stressers" in my life. I am having to learn how to let go and it is so hard for me. I have this friend who is a good friend to me but she is so frustrating to me and i feel that our friendship is a lot of times one sided. I feel that right now I need to back off from her and be focusing on myself right now with everything that I am dealing with..my ocd and depression and anxiety...besides ...she is really making my anxiety rise. PLUS, we spend so much time together that it has kept anyone else from getting to know me...and so I am trying to branch out and meet new people and make new friends...but she is taking it as me being rude to her...I have been told that I need to meet more people and get involved so Im trying to. My mother however is starting to think that I am only thinking of myself. We got into an arguement over the fact that my medicine is making me feel so weird and she thinks its crazy that I might be changing medicines again and was asking me if my therapist has talked to me about getting more involved and volunteering and focusing on someone else for a while. Which yes, she has talked to me about that..but the way my mom said it made it seem like she thought I am only thinking of myself. Excuse me, but I need to be focusing on myself right now and how I can make myself better. I have to be taking care of myself. I agree that volunteering is a good thing but I told her I have NO CONTROL over how the medicine makes my body or me react and that even if Im volunteering or doing something didnt mean that my mind wasnt going to be racing or that i wasnt going to be depressed or anxious about something or even obsessing over something. ...She got really irritated. I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I dont have any control over what she or anyone thinks of me and if they think im being selfish thinking of myself right now..what can i do? Im not doing well right now and yes i am concerned but I think Im doing right by focusing on myself...it isnt wrong is it? Right now my medicine is making me dizzy, confused...my thoughts race and my anxiety is back up...and im obsessing..so yes, I do have things Im dealing with and the fact that my mom will not support me and thinks im making it all up really hits me hard. Does anyone think that my reasoning is wrong ...should I not be concerned and thinking of making myself better? I hate it that my mom is not more supportive. My dad however being the doctor that he is, gave me a hug and told me after my mom left the room that he just wanted me to take care of myself, and talk to my therapist. I proceeded to tell him that I wasnt making it up that the medicine was making me feel weird and he said he knew i wasnt. So at least I have his full support...and he doesnt even know a lot about the different medicines for mood disorders and all..so thankgoodness he is being supportive. This is so frustrating!!! Im just trying to do whats right!!!!!
poster:Pandabear
thread:307950
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