Posted by Crooked Heart on January 24, 2004, at 15:54:19
In reply to Don't Let Go Yet - Please. » fallsfall, posted by DaisyM on January 23, 2004, at 13:59:47
Hello Daisy (and everyone)
I've been reading this board for a few weeks now, so first a big thank-you. Just to briefly explain, I was in therapy for about 5 years, finishing about 3 years ago. The experience changed me radically and was the best thing I ever did for myself, but there some things that were not so good about it. What's helped me most with those has been reading "In session" and reading the posts on this board, so again thanks everyone. (Dear Mr Fallsfalls Therapist was just one of the several posts that really struck a chord.)
You said you wanted wise words, Daisy. Haven't got those, but can only offer this.
> At the beginning, I would complain about all these "ghosts", feelings of sadness that would just show up with no real reason. But they could be contained, or ignored. I remember my Therapist saying, "just try to sit with your feelings, tolerate them." Now that seems easy...
Yeah, does it feel like you're in the middle of major surgery and suddenly someone's taken away the anaesthetic? The pain and sorrow is just grotesque, and you think for goodness' sake it can't be meant to be as bad as this? Or as unremitting.
Let me tell you that it will pass, and even the memory of how bad it is will fade.
What you described in your Admitting thoughts posts is also so similar to how I felt at that worst point of therapy. It sounds as though your therapist is really good and supportive.> I know part of what I'm doing is mourning, for who I was, for dreams I'm letting go of. And I know it takes time. But does it have to take THIS much time?!
One thing I did used to tell myself at that time was that I HAD to start feeling better at some point because human beings just don't stay at such extremes of emotion. I don't know whether that idea might help you to get through?
I hope you start to feel better soon. Sending you warm thoughts.
(PS I'm posting from the UK. This means that even at the horrible 3.a.m. low point, if you have those, someone's awake and thinking of you. Isn't the net wonderful!)
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