Posted by Karen_kay on January 12, 2004, at 13:37:11
In reply to Re: *@#$^^ Computer!, posted by Elle2021 on January 12, 2004, at 0:04:32
The last Vicodin, eh? I'll take that! Come to think of it, I sure could use one right about now. I'm thinking I'm going to take my anxiety medication before my appointment with my therapist. Now, this should be interesting. I just might go in there blabbing on and on. I so have a habit of looking and the clock when I'm in there and he has a habit of saying, "Don't worry, we still have 45 minutes left." Yes, it begins that early in the session. Funny, I used to look forward to the sessions but as soon as I got in the office and sat down I would look at the clock and think, "Can I set it fast?" Even though when time is up I don't want to leave, I just don't want to talk either. Maybe if I take my meds first (is that abuse, even though I do get anxious before I go in?) I'll staple my hands to the chair and he'll need a crane to get me out of his blasted office! See how he likes that. I'm going to tell him this time that I like him, not sexually or anything, but that I think he's doing a good job. I don't ever tell him that and I think my dream is also telling me that I should give him some positive reinforcement as well. The thing is, I really make a good boss. Just with him, I can't seem to tell him how much I appreciate him. Or how much I think I need him. I'm scared to. :( Do I have to? I think my dream says I should. But it is just a stupid dream. But I don't remember stupid dreams, I only remember important ones. Help me Elle!
Yeah, I'm glad you get a kick out of my pain and suffering. I'm glad someone does. If it helps, I'll post more of my emotional turmoil for you to laugh and point your finger at and say, "Ha ha, I'm glad I'm not her! She sure is stupid. She doesn't brush her hair. She probably doesn't shower either. And she can't match her clothes properly. I bet she has bunions (huh is that spelled right?) and camel toe too!" Yeah keep laughing my friend we can't all be perfect like you! :)
I checked and my Pdoc charges 320 an hour. I never realized it was so high, but I did the math and for a 20 minute med check, it runs 80 something. Maybe there's a break in price for an hour session or something??? I don't think he's ever charged me that much and I know we've ran over 20 minutes many times, but it is always his fault. My therapist charges 120 something I think an hour for therapy. But I live in a small town so the price is according to the demand (?? ha! I think more people in this town would seriously benefit from intensive therapy!).I don't think he would question why his reassurance would be important to you. He is your Pdoc after all. Do you think if he offered to do you therapy that you still wouldn't be able to open up? If he offered, then you should say that you need an apt every week or every other week at least. Once a month isn't enough for you, if that's what you think. And I too am at a loss for words many times (GASP)! It happens. And I prefer not to use any type of technical words for fear that I use the wrong one or use it in the wrong context. No way! I just use common words like "thingey" too! "I feel thingey for you" ect.... He gets the picture.
I have a feeling too that if you were to see my therapist he may think we were related. I wouldn't take that as an insult though. I'd just say you were my third cousin, twice removed :) But again, you have to do your best so that he likes me better than you, ok? We do seem to be on the same wavelength and share some similar dx. Coincidence?
My friend, who recently moved commented to me that the only support she has right now is from her two best friends (me and Shorty), both of which happen to be crazy. I kinda thought that was funny.
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