Posted by DaisyM on October 27, 2003, at 21:56:41
...was the last thing I said as I left today and my Therapist said "I know but keep coming."
I guess I keep thinking that if I just say the right thing, reveal the right thing, the pain will stop. I'm looking for that Movie Miracle when everyone has the "AHA!" all around and hugs and feels better. The past if forgiven, or rectified and everyone lives happily ever after.
It just isn't true. I feel like I keep taking the bandaid off of the wound and it hasn't healed...and it hurts like hell. The worse part is I am so alone with all of it. I know I need to talk about all of this "stuff" but when I do the depression gets deeper and darker and it is really scary.
I wish I could cry -- maybe that would help. I have the week off which may have been a mistake. Too much alone time. Too much time to think. :(
I hate this. :(
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