Posted by Penny on August 14, 2003, at 8:42:50
In reply to Re: Too Many Pills, posted by allisonf on August 14, 2003, at 6:47:01
>Last night my husband (who is wonderful...I just feel sort of beyond reach) and I debated if I should go to the er--I've never been in the hospital before for this, and I'm afraid if I go to the er, they will keep me.
Perhaps they will, and perhaps that's what you need right now. I was in the hospital two weeks ago, for the first time, and it wasn't a good experience or a bad experience, but it kept me safe and gave me a little break from reality and if I had to do it again, I would. It's also comforting, to me, to be around others who are going through similar situations. Of course, it would be better if you knew which hospital your doc prefers, if you have a choice through your insurance, and it is also better if you go voluntarily.
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> I guess you're right about calling the on call therapist. I just hate feeling so needy or like I can't even make it a few weeks without her. I've been debating leaving a message for the on call person and asking that she contact me directly instead of calling her first, but why would she disregard my therp's instructions and do that? You're right, my therapist set it up this way, I shouldn't be protecting her...then again she is coming back this Saturday, so if I can hold out 2 or 3 more days, I could call her at home.I'll say what my therapist told me about calling her and my pdoc - they would rather know what's going on when it's going on, so they can help THEN rather than wait until it gets worse and harder to help. Please try to not worry so much about your therapist. I worried about bothering my pdoc even though he said "Page me anytime" until he told me, when I apologized one night for paging him, that I wasn't the only page he'd had that day - he usually gets multiple pages. If he didn't want me to page him when I need to, he wouldn't have told me to page him when I need to.
I'm sorry you're in so much pain right now. We can all relate. It's especially hard when the therapist and pdoc are on vacation. When my T was on vacation recently, I saw one of her colleagues, and it wasn't as helpful as seeing her, but it was helpful. And last week my pdoc was on vacation, and said he would be checking his pages and returning calls, but I was adamant about not paging him. Fortunately, I had my therapist who was calling me everyday, even when she flew to NY for the weekend. So that was helpful.
But, really, ask for the help you need from your practitioners. If your therapist told you it was okay to call, CALL! Even if the pill taking wasn't a suicide attempt, it was entirely too close.
Hoping things will improve for you soon.
((((Allison))))
P
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