Posted by allisonf on August 16, 2003, at 21:31:09
In reply to Re: Too Many Pills » allisonf, posted by fallsfall on August 15, 2003, at 10:49:55
Just wanted to report that the ice cream consumption has had an effect! I'm not kidding--I ate it yesterday and today and now I am feeling almost normal. But what is that all about? It's like I am another person when I am depressed, and when I'm better, I have no idea who that person was.
I've been in therapy for almost 2 years now (tho I had been in therapy from 93 to 96 with the same therapist). It's hard to say how long my depressions last b/c I have a lot of mixed episodes (like this past Tuesday) where I am agitated, frightened, suicidal, but drinking, driving recklessly, angry, writing like crazy, racing thoughts, etc. Then things start to slow down & I'm in bed, etc. but that only lasts about 3 days. I think I go round like this every month or so.
I remember you talking about your transference issues with your old therapist in one of the old threads (forever therapy?). That is so great that you found someone new who is helping. 18 months of depression--I can't tell you how much I feel for you. Depression is a struggle like nothing I have never known before. Do you have unipolar depression or bipolar?
My therapist is CBT and is really trying to downplay this whole transference phenomena. You are really making me think I should look into at least consulting with someone psychodynamic. How are your therapy sessions different now that you are with a psychodynamic therp rather than CBT? Is it like traditional psychoanalysis--on the couch/word association stuff? How has he been dealing with the transference?
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