Posted by allisonf on August 14, 2003, at 6:47:01
In reply to Re: Too Many Pills » allisonf, posted by Dinah on August 14, 2003, at 0:30:13
fallsfall and Dinah, thank you so much for your supportive words. I can't tell you how much it means to me. You are really my lifeline right now.
I did end up leaving a message for my pdoc and he says on his machine that he'll try to return a limited number of calls b/t 5 and 6 tonight. I'm hoping he calls. Everytime I take one of my regular meds now, I get really dizzy. Last night my husband (who is wonderful...I just feel sort of beyond reach) and I debated if I should go to the er--I've never been in the hospital before for this, and I'm afraid if I go to the er, they will keep me.
I guess you're right about calling the on call therapist. I just hate feeling so needy or like I can't even make it a few weeks without her. I've been debating leaving a message for the on call person and asking that she contact me directly instead of calling her first, but why would she disregard my therp's instructions and do that? You're right, my therapist set it up this way, I shouldn't be protecting her...then again she is coming back this Saturday, so if I can hold out 2 or 3 more days, I could call her at home.
No more urges to take pills & my husband is watching me more closely. My head just feels chock full of stuff that can't get out. I have snipets of songs playing over and over and they won't stop. Does anyone else ever have this? I am so discouraged thinking this disease is robbing me of my normal daily functioning and just promises to get worse and worse over time. Meds just don't work for me. I think I am doomed to death or madness. ok, perhaps that's a little melodramatic, but I do feel pretty hopeless right now.
Sorry to be such a bummer, thanks again for listening to this...
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