Posted by Dinah on February 3, 2003, at 21:39:52
I think I have trouble seeing myself consistently as the same person with different moods. I don't think "I am Dinah, and I'm not feeling terribly sociable today." or "I am Dinah, and I feel like chatting today." Instead I think "I am Dinah, a person who doesn't like to socialize." or "I am Dinah, who enjoys interaction." I don't know if this makes a whole lot of sense.
But the overall effect is to leave me without an enduring sense of who I am. A day to day sense of who Dinah is as a person. Because how I feel about something today may be completely different than how I feel about it tomorrow, I end up feeling disconnected from yesterday and tomorrow. Again, I'm not sure I'm making sense.
I think that to others, I appear to be the same person every day. I appear to have the same opinions and the same responses. I may even be really predictable. But I can't internalize that predictability.
Now I'm pretty sure I'm not making sense.
poster:Dinah
thread:2464
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