Posted by mikhail99 on January 6, 2003, at 17:02:50
In reply to Done with therapy, posted by Miller on January 6, 2003, at 9:11:44
> I have decided that I am not getting anywhere with my therapy. I think it is a waste of time and money. I feel worse now than I did before I started. I am supposed to start "concentradt" sessions with my psychologist next Monday.
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> I will leave him a meesage saying I won't be there. Whatever is going to happen, will. I was alone when I started this and I am alone again. I have set myself up with a false notion that my shrink is on my "side" and is trying to help me. I have now figured out I am just another car payment to him.What happened to make you feel that way about the financial part of it?
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> It's a lost cause. I'm done. Thanks for listening. Godd luck to all of you.
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> -Miller
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>It's NOT a lost cause, YOU are not a lost cause! I know you said you don't want to try with someone else but consider that you may not be in a place where you can decide this right now. You have to remember that feeling like this won't last forever, that there will be down days and there will be better days and you have to wait (I know how hard that is) for the better days to make such huge decisions. If you don't know how to tell your therapist how you feel, print this post and show it to him! He may not have realized how he's hurt you and HE MUST BE TOLD!
If you have to, get angry and do it! Whatever it takes. But you can't do this alone, please don't try! Please, please, please don't give up on yourself. I think those of us that have communicated with you have found you to be very hard on yourself and we have also found you to be very undeserving of being so hard on yourself. You are compassionate, caring and articulate. You just have to find someone to help you express yourself in therapy, in other words, a decent therapist.
Please stay in touch here if nothing else, we'll miss you terribly and always wonder and worry what happened to you. Please take care!
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